Making of an Album Vlog 1

To all of those reading, watching, or following this blog, Thank you for the support and interest. I'll be posting up maybe one or 2 of these vlogs each week. This will be the only place to get new info about the album, sneak peeks, and updates! I hope y'all enjoy the insights, and the words. After all, they are all I have.

My heart never lost you...

So I've long been done writing for the album, but for some reason there has been this feeling in me. For a few weeks now, it's been itching to surface. I've often described what it's like writing a song. The feelings before, the feelings after, what's happening as I am writing it. It often varies. However, this time I could feel it. It revealed itself in pieces. Day to day it was another thought, another lyric.

Ya see I've got this friend, lets call her Sally, who I'm completely obsessed with. I don't think I am, but my friends often joke that I am. To tell the truth, she fades in and out of my thoughts. Only by control of my will. If I did not monitor these thoughts, she would probably run rampant throughout my brain. Day by day I'll try and put her out of my mind, so I can function about normally. The truth is I don't feel like I did last year. I am completely different. As a result, I realized I can lose her in my thoughts, there I can go as fast as I want. My heart however, never lost her. So I'm left with a painful reminder of my feelings every time I talk to her. It's rather stupid.

I am truly just trying to be her friend these days. I think we may in the end be too different from each other to ever be anything more than friends. I am after all non-fixable. I am an awful person that no one should want to date, that doesn't mean I don't have feelings. I'm just trying to deal with them in my own way. I'll sort out the truth later. Either way here it is... lyrics here, the video is on my facebook.

Inside Out

"Settle down Sally, don't say a word, life ain't what you think it is. It's only what you'd prefer.

The day spoke out to me and said, son you're much too young to live like love is the only blessing that never comes.

Take another look now, I've got my heart inside out. But you'll find a way to bring it back down to you, cause my heart never lost you.

Settle down Sally, don't make a sound. Cause I lost my voice when my heart first hit the ground. I don't feel like I did last year. I don't feel like these words have reached your ears. So listen close love, and I'll sing you a song that bears the truth that you knew all along.

Take another look now, I've got my heart inside out. But you'll find a way to bring it back down to you,, cause my heart never lost you.

Testing testing 1, 2, 3... is your heart still beating?

Testing testing 1, 2, 3... is your heart still beating?

Testing testing 1, 2, 3... is your heart still beating.

Take another look now, I've got my heart inside out. But you'll find a way to bring it back down to you, cause my heart never lost you.

My heart never lost you.

My heart never lost you.