LOST

I woke up today to find that my life is on the verge of  a major change. We have long since finished the new album Beneath Your Waves, and are now patiently awaiting the mixes. I am anxious for this set of mixes even more so than the others, because the last set of songs have some pretty strong statements in them. Songs like "Receiving You", "Company With Stars" , and "When You're Not Around" are all about the same thing. It's amazing how a different emotion was driven into each song. They all sound so different from each other.  Even a song like "I Was Young" has somehow found it's way into this category. "I Was Young" is a piano rock driven melody. It's much more serious in nature than some of the other tracks like "Lights Go Out". The lyrics are about my return back to Midland. It was strange coming home and feeling like a stranger, not knowing anyone but your family, seeing the landscape change. I listened to a song from The Weakerthans and I truly felt like I should have written it. I remember it so vividly, I was walking downtown late at night and the lyrics painted the exact picture I was in. "This city's still breathing but barely it seems; through buildings gone missing like teeth. The sidewalks are watching me think about you, sparkled with broken glass. I'm back with scars to show, back with the streets I know." I couldn't shake a certain someone from my mind. Sally. I ended up coming home and writing about anything but her. So I wrote about this foreign feeling I felt being in my hometown. I wrote about how I am not the person I used to be. I wrote about my loss of faith, my shame, and eventual gratitude. Other songs on the album are more direct in who or what they are about, such as: "Bring Back Love" "The Right Times", and "Company With Stars". These songs reflect a more personal look at the subject being spoken of in the lyrics. There is one song in particular that pulls at my heart strings. I feel so many feelings when I hear this song. I feel love, regret, desperation, and happiness; but mostly I feel shame. I wrote this song in secret and is the first time I led someone to believe it was about them, when I knew it wasn't. Being honest was never my strong point, but this was different, a line was crossed this time. I wrote the song about a girl I never get to see enough, and how I feel every time I don't see her. How I can keep hoping that she will come around, but faith can only go so far. I wrote how words never find their way from my heart, to my lips, to her ears. They are lost somewhere in route to her. In the end I believe that's where they will stay. Lost.