LCD we meet again...

Looks like it's gonna be a struggle to get healthy again. I awoke throwing up this morning. I didn't want to alarm anyone, so I told them it was my duodenum acting up again. It was as I feared though. I'm extremely anemic, and my duodenum has failed, I am also experiencing gall bladder failure. It's gonna be a long road back to get healthy. I just hate it. I let this happen to myself though. I'm gonna try and fix myself, I've needed repair in so many parts of my life. This is just a new one to add to the list. Looks like it's salads and water for the rest of the year.

In other news, I am all settled in. It's great to be back home. You never realize how much you miss your home, and your family, till you go out and make new ones. It's only then that you realize nothing will ever compete with what you had when you were young. At least for me it's like that. I grew up in a happy home. My parents loved each other. I never lacked for any immaterial thing. We were not rich by any means, but it was home; and we entertained ourselves. I love being back. Most people would be ashamed to come home and live with their mother, but to me it's like starting over. It's also not permanent. It's actually a vacation for me. I'm a simple man, you can keep Cabo San Lucas; I'll take home any day. I've got my room set up just the way I would want it anywhere. I have music playing all day. I am reading books and books and books. I feel intelligent again. Overall I just feel great, other than physically.

I hope to see Bird when she returns to the states. I'm tired of being a contradicting jerk. I just want to see you, nothing more, nothing less.

I can't make you love me, if you don't.

I am in love with this cover song right now. Funny how just when you think a wound has healed it opens back up and hurts just a little more than it did before. I'm still on track with trying to start over. I'm picking up the pieces of my life that I seem to have lost along the way and I'm mending the cracks. I'll fix it up and I just know I'll shine like new. There is a lot out there for me, and I'm excited to see what it is. I just know that I'm always going to have this hope... even if it is in vain. I'd sing a thousand songs if it meant one would get through to her. I guess for the time being I'll remain beneath you waves.

Come To Life

And just like that, he found his way... The album has come to life.

I'm officially done writing for my bands first full length album, we have 12 brand new songs that have taken life. I'm really excited to hear what our CD will sound like. I've been very busy, I haven't had any distractions. I'm back home with the people that matter most in my life. I do miss Jeremy and Alden, and Lauren, and Ayrian, but mostly I miss that Sally girl. If I were to dedicate this album to anyone it would be her. Literally the majority of the album is about her and she doesn't even know, or maybe she might. She is a bright girl. I know she doesn't read my blog though, which is a good thing, I'll never say her name out loud. Then there is that Bird... any song that isn't written about Sally is written about Bird. It's strange to see the songs written about Lauren. They all seem to be farewell songs. Like "Save Me" and "Contracts", also "Take 2" they all speak of where the road has taken me and her. I have never been happier to have known someone and be blessed that they are still in my life. Like the last conversation we had though I think it's true that our road is a road of friendship these days. I can say that if it were not for her I would not be a musician today.

I just finished wrapping up the last song "The Right Times" Which is about miss Sally. When I showed the guys it immediately became a contender for the album, then as soon as we all played it together, it became the favorite, and now it's the single. It will be the song we push for the radio. One of my personal favs is "Receiving You" it's a song about both Sally and Lauren. It's a very interesting song. A lot of truth and self loathing wrapped in good music and little secrets. This album is going to define the last 6 years of my life. For those interested and wanting a sneak peak into the songs. Here they are, the ones in bold are already studio recorded. We finished them in our first session in May.

1. Save Me

2. The Right Times

3. Take 2

4. Receiving You

5. Bring Back Love (Harry and Sally

6. Contracts

7. Lights Go Out

8. I've Got Friends

9. Flatline

10. When You're Not Around

11. Liar Liar

12 I Wanted Hayley All Along

10 Years

I'm back from Cabo, AKA worst/best trip I've ever taken. If I had not taken this trip, I would not have come to the conclusions I possess today. I started writing in a journal when I got there, but I wrote this bit in the airport. So I've decided to transfer writings from there to here, my blog.

10 Years

June 18th, Saturday Morning.

Today marks the first day of honesty for me. So to begin, I guess I should say this isn't my first entry. I wrote in this booklet upon landing in Mexico. I tore out the pages because what I wrote was a lie. It is quite a shame that I've had to lie to myself. I wrote to a stranger over the last week, about a song. A song I tried to hide. When I took the time to reflect on it I realized that I was able to write one of the most honest songs I've ever written in the most dishonest times of my life. In a time where I lied to everyone close to me. When I lied to the very beating in my chest. I am not proud. I am indeed ashamed. I don't even know why I lied in the first place.

Now I'm back in the air, these flights connect in a city that holds both good and bad memories for me. For the first time I'm taking these memories to the sky. I'm taking them with me. I've always left them there to remind me anytime I show up. I need to carry them with me. Bear the weight. This road I'm approaching will not be an easy one. I don't think I've ever done anything like this. Maybe it's the altitude or the way the atmosphere tastes but this ringing in my ears wont stop. Ha, I'm thinking it's the altitude. After all your head can only be so full when you're this close to the heavens. I have so many questions I need answered. I've decided to take the narrow road to seek out these answers. Maybe it's in my stars that I'll find them. Before I can get what I desire, I must admit the truth.

My name is Adam Patino Rivera. I was born October 5th 1987. I am a terrible, terrible person. I am a compulsive liar. I've been in love once, I think. I was simply too young and stupid to understand it. My father has always been right. I love my family more than I can stand, yet i don't show it like I should. The people I claim as my best friends are as different as they are similar to me. Music means more than anything to me. More than love, more than any girl. It defines me, and I would be naked without it. I have feelings fora friend that I shouldn't. Not because she is young, or far away, or has different religious beliefs; but because she will truly break my heart one day. Still... I hope that maybe I'll see her in 10 years. 6/18/11

Come Back Down

I'm in a good mood. I don't know why that last song came out sooooo sad. It is a pretty song though. Very happy with it. This new one has been in the work for a while and then BAM the rest hit me. It's gonna be nice. I'll put up a video later of me singing it. This is by far the happiest song I have ever written. Thanks Lauren.

"Did you get those letters I sent to you from across the ocean? The deep wide blue.

Sing it back when you can't relax baby. I'll be here when all you've got is a maybe.

To the questions you didn't ask. Looking backwards you look into the past.

Then you tell me, of that maybe you're still in love.

I said hey hey hey! I'll be around when you come back down.

I said hey hey hey! I'll be around when you come back down.

Just come back, just come back, just come back down.

You're losing light to the night these days.

And when it creeps up on you, you still turn around and say...

That I believe in the things you said. How we were born in the night to be led

By our own dreams. By the things we think we need.

Then the past comes back and I'm proud to say...

That I'm still in love, I'm still in love today.

I said Hey hey hey! I'll be around when you come back down.

I said hey hey hey! I'll be around when you come back down.

Just come back, just come back, just come back down.

Check your pulse cause I've got this feeling.

You're still alive but you're bearly breathing.

Come back down to me. Oh and come back down to me.

"Moments like that belong in a Box"

I played a show last night in College Station. It was quite hilarious. Granted we weren't even supposed to play the show, and it was the only bad turnout we have had in a long time. But you know what? It was a blast to play! The people that were there listened. It was really a breath of fresh air, and I'll always remember that show, that moment. That's all for tonight, for those of you who read this blog, I just want to say thank you for being so awesome. The fact that you listen and like the music I make, leaves me at a loss for words. It means more to me than I could ever express. In Word or song. Thank you.

"TL"

These Pictures Tell A Story

These are some photos of me and scott working on the next 2 songs on the cd. I'll be putting up video blogs and such of the songs themselves. I just need to figure out how to take video in a longer time frame. I think I'm going to go out and buy a camera. I am already gonna get that old style Polaroid that I've been wanting. Either way. Hope you enjoy the photos. This will be the only place to keep track of the recording of this EP. It is a very low key project for us, even though we will be putting a lot of effort and time into it. So if you're a fan of our music, you will most defiantly be wanting to keep track of the songs. Especially because when it's all said and done, we will only be releasing 4 songs. The rest go to the person who inspired this CD. The person this CD is for.