Your Love Will Be Safe With Me

Me, Jason, Scott, and Jaime are so close to finishing our album, it's driving me crazy. I truly hope that people get what we are trying to do with this album. I don't want to play bar to bar, just entertaining people. I don't want to be background music. I want to show people why I didn't pursue a career in what I was majoring in when I was in college. I want to tell a story with the songs I've written. I want to change lives. I want to change those lives with words. I want to get a message across to the person these songs are about. I want to tell them I know were not meant to be, I know that I wont ever get through to you, just know that I'm always here for you. I wont wait for love, I wont wait for anything. I'll simply just be, and live my life to the fullest, and try to be the best Christian I can be. I like to think I'll know when love has found me. That's good enough for me. The funny thing about myself is that I've already found what I want to spend the rest of my life doing, and that's making and performing music that I'm proud of, music that I love. So from me to you, all of you, any of you, and yes you too Sally; I hope you enjoy what reaches your ears. I appreciate all of your support, my friends, my family, and my loves. Your love will be safe with me.  

NEW SONG!!!!!!

Oh the beauty of a new song, I had this idea for a piano piece and it turned into something else. I'll be posting a video of it as soon as I can get a good take of the band playing it. I seriously have never heard a drum or bass piece quite like this. I encourage my band mates but I also don't want to tell them how incredibly blown I am by this new song. Don't want it to go to their heads lol. Kidding of course. The new song has to go on the album. I'm hoping we can just add it. I don't really want to lose any of the 12 we have right now. Who knows maybe 13 tracks is what we need. The lyrics to the new song are somewhat of a confession. A confession of how I have let one of my most important relationships drift away as of late. Harry and Sally don't speak as much as they should. I also feel like I've danced around who she is long enough. I shouldn't be afraid to say it out loud. I pretty much do in this song. I've never gotten a description of a person, emotion and a feeling better than I managed in this song. For lack of better words, I LOVE THIS SONG! Here ya go... the lyrics.

You won't know

Verse 1

Take that flight to Indiana and you stay in motion.

Dressed to kill and so well mannered, but you've got this notion

Of keeping company with stars. 

I'm keeping company with scars.

Oh yeah.

Verse 2

I'll lay back down and speak the truth that you say you wanted. 

You won't know the things you lose, or the things you taunted.

Up and down my halls. When you knew I wanted all.
Up and down I'd fall. 

Oh yeah.

Chorus

If I spoke to the rain like it speaks to you

If I showed some restraint maybe I'd learn the truth

that 3AM still calls out your name

I'm hoping that you'll fall back in my way

but you won't know.

Verse3

Fly back south to find Savannah and to hear these broken 

notes resound from this piano, oh the way they're spoken.

Through burning lips and blinded tongues

Through parted waves of drowning lungs. 

Repeat Chorus.

Books do a body good.

This is more of a personal update. I'm thinking I'm going to start working out again. I have seriously let my health get out of hand. I've developed a routine for my workout. I've been missing two very important things in my life as of late. I haven't been staying healthy and I haven't been reading like I used to. It's been years since I sat down and read 300 pages of something. I've discovered that novels tend to bore me. It's not that I have no imagination, it's just that I feel no furtherance of knowledge. I feel like I'm not learning. So I will be running to public library every morning and run back. While I'm there I will read books I used to. Textbook-like in nature. I've started simple, a modest 200 page book over American History. Time to get my big brain back. Who know's maybe it will help me write. On a side note, "When You're Not Around" is my new favorite song on my bands upcoming record. I love it.

Oh Helen, you're just like Sally.

This is the 3rd update over the making of my bands first full length album. I hope you enjoy this video and the details to come. Also realized that the video I was looking at was backwards, not the actual video itself. So funny! I am quite the idiot.

By The Light Of The Moon

Here is the next video update for the making of Beneath Your Waves, by band's first LP. The next entry I'll be posting videos from the studio, videos from shows, and pics from our first session.

When you were young

I've been feeling nostalgic lately, I can't explain why either. Everything seems to remind me of something I'm missing. This has led to many sleepless nights. This one seems to be the worst one so far. I literally had to get up, walk to my computer, and write this down. I know the things that I miss. Those thoughts are the things that keep me from sleep. I know as soon as I close my eyes the things I was thinking about will formulate into dreams I will vaguely remember in the morning. I'm writing in this blog while I'm writing letters, letters that may never be responded to. The point is that they will be read, and that's all that matters to me. Beneath Your Waves is so close to being finished. I thought I had finished writing for it, but things just keep coming up. Whether it's a memory I misplaced or Sally running through my mind, or old words from my mother spoken in a new way; things keep popping up to remind me life is fragile and it passes you by. Just recently I drove to the old church I used to go to when I was young. The church that built me. It looked so foreign to me, like a stranger that claimed to have known me once, or a road that you swore you've driven on, like deja vu, like a dream you can't remember. It made me evaluate my life, all the times I've said "I love you" and never understood what those words could mean. All the oaths I've forgotten, all the promises I've broken, all the words I never meant. It made me think of the one person I could never forget, It made me think of the one person I've never known. The one person I can't bring myself to lie to anymore.

"Liar liar don't you ever get tired of singing these songs for a love that may never come?"

Making of an Album Vlog 1

To all of those reading, watching, or following this blog, Thank you for the support and interest. I'll be posting up maybe one or 2 of these vlogs each week. This will be the only place to get new info about the album, sneak peeks, and updates! I hope y'all enjoy the insights, and the words. After all, they are all I have.